Sometimes I'm frustrated by my inability to recognize what God has done in my life. I lose sight of what miracles He has accomplished, what circumstances ONLY HE could have orchestrated. Instead, I focus on my doubts for the future--I fail to grasp that God will continue to be faithful to me.

This tendency makes me feel as futile as the Israelites (in the book of Exodus), who in spite of God's obvious faithfulness in the wilderness on their way to the Promised Land, continued to mutter, doubt, and be unaware of God's presence resting upon them and guiding them. They knew what God had done FOR them, yet they did not allow God to accomplish His deep moving WITHIN them. Continually losing sight of God's power and grace, they repeated a destructive cycle of sin--turning away from God, until their hearts finally turned back to Him. Still, their hearts never ceased to turn away from God. They failed to realize God's faithfulness. They forgot what God had done. They allowed their fear for the future to manifest in disbelief in a God who had already done many miracles that they could see with their eyes.

Still, God was gracious unto them. After Moses pleaded for the people following the Israelites' worship of their hand-made golden calf, God showed intense, incredible mercy. God spoke to Moses in Exodus 34:6-7a, "I am the LORD, I am the LORD, the merciful and gracious God. I am slow to anger and rich in unfailing love and faithfulness. I show this unfailing love to many thousands by forgiving every kind of sin and rebellion." 

My tendency to forget and to doubt is met by God's forgiveness. Even though I don't realize his unfailing love and faithfulness, still He showers these gifts upon me. I can hardly begin to understand this kind of provision, yet that does not stop God from giving these blessings.

May my heart be aware of God's faithfulness in such a way that I can have vision of what He wants to do through me and in me next. May I not be held back by doubt and fear that allow the enemy to prevent my eyes from seeing what God wants me to see. I pray that God gives me VISION--such VISION--to not get discouraged by the limitations I place on myself. For only when I rely on God's power to work through me will God receive the glory. And giving God glory is ALL I want to live for.


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