Those who plant in tears will harvest with shouts of joy. They weep as they go to plant their seed, but they sing as they return with the harvest." ~Psalm 126:5-6

Honestly, I have NEVER cried as much as I have cried this past school year. Tears fill my eyes on a regular basis, and I'm learning to accept it as an expression of how I feel and love so deeply.

Many different things trigger my emotion. Whether I think about how much I love my family, the sweet memories of my childhood, the beautiful faces of my friends back home, the impact of certain individuals on my life, the pain some people have to experience on a daily basis, the longing I have for my sister Katie's embrace, the beauty around me, or the immensity of God's great love, I am left broken before the Lord.

Yet, God promises that He will record every tear we shed.

"You keep track of all my sorrows.
   You have collected all my tears in your bottle.
    You have recorded each one in your book." 
~Psalm 56:8

I believe that when we are truly broken before the Lord, we give Him the opportunity to be the strength in our weakness. For so long, I had been trying to conceal my emotion in order to appear like I had it "perfectly together." Yet, as I've been learning SO MUCH this year about how broken I really am, I have realized how amazing it is that God's grace covers my weakness.

I do not need to fear my tears, because if God's grace is sufficient for me, that means that I'm able to give Him my every emotion, longing, insecurity, and struggle. When we recognize that God truly wants to know US, we begin to believe the truth that we ARE secure in His love. Because nothing is hidden from His sight, we can rest secure that if we share our deepest struggles with Him, we are not telling Him anything He doesn't already know. What we ARE doing is giving these struggles to Him, allowing Him to work on our hearts and give us the comfort we so greatly long for.


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