Into All Truth.

Being back home for the past couple weeks has made me reflect upon this school year, and especially upon the growth I've experienced in my relationship with God even in this last semester.

One concept that my heart continues returning to is the reality of what God has shown me during this season compared to the reality of my thoughts and mind before this season. Let me explain...

For so much of my life, I have lived in fear. Fear of what may happen. Fear of dreadful possibilities. Fear that God wouldn't come through for me. For more nights than I can count, I would spend exorbitant amounts of time lying paralyzed with fear about things beyond my control. I was so fearful that I couldn't fall asleep because I was afraid to fall asleep. The enemy presented a reality of fear to me, and I willingly accepted living in fear as my reality. And as the enemy continued to feed me with fear, I continued to listen because it was familiar to me, and therefore had a sense of safety attached to it. I could rely on my fear because I knew that it would always be there. (Even as I write this, the irrationality of the enemy's thoughts in my head are so apparent.) I surrendered to allowing fear to be a part of my everyday life, and fear became an activity I was not even conscious of at times because of its familiarity.

Yet, the Holy Spirit speaks truth. He leads us into ALL truth. No lies are found in Him, and He speaks no lies to us. And where the Spirit is, there is FREEDOM.

And this past year, I have begun to experience this beautiful freedom from fear. I have realized that God's perfect love casts out all of my fear. I have realized that His love is my reality. My new reality. It is jaw-dropping to me to think that I lived so much of my time in fear because I believed it was the best reality I could live. I believed that because I had always been fearful, that I would always have to live that way. No. Not so. I am not meant to live in fear. We are not meant to live in fear.

"For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline." 
~2 Timothy 1:7

As many times as I've heard this verse, I was never truly believing it. As I believe this verse and claim it over my life, it is changing the way I live!

His love is becoming more and more familiar to me, and the fear the enemy has injected into me is becoming more foreign. As I pray for God to continue to perfect His love in me, He continues to help me see how perfect His love is for me.

When I have a fearful thought about the future, I am beginning to surrender to His love, not the enemy's fear. Here I am each night, lying down in the same bedroom I've fallen asleep in for the past 19+ years, but for the first time in my life, I do not fall prey to the enemy's gripping fear. There is an amazing peace that envelops my heart these days...soothing me, calming me, allowing me to trust that God is holding the tomorrow that He chooses to give me. I am sleeping with a restful heart.

God gives freedom from the reality the enemy has earnestly imparted to us. God's reality is true.


"When the Spirit of truth comes, he will guide you into all truth." ~John 16:13a

Holy Spirit, lead us into Your truth. Make so apparent the lies of the enemy we have readily believed. May Your truth permeate our hearts, allowing us to not only glimpse--but experience--the reality of what You have for us. Such good things.


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